Learning to smile again

This comes from a conversation with the ex-boyfriend at the bar (I was not drunk). So he tells me to smile, and I told him I don't do that much anymore of course his response was I was married to the wrong man and I told him no he's a good guy and he says that doesn't mean he isn't the wrong man for me. So I tried to give it some thought and ultimately it doesn't come down to who I married I didn't smile for a long time before that. In high school I moved out of my mom's and didn't talk to her for about 2 years. I was raped by someone I thought I could trust and was a friend when I was 20 years old a month after that I dad was diagonosed with a very rare but treatable cancer which he died from 10 years ago on Valentines day. I went through a rough time for quite a while and so I have decided I need to learn to smile again. The question is where do I go from here? I could continue to make excuses because come on lets face I already know that I am an emotional eater. SO it would be really easy to hide behind it all instead of dealing with it head on. So some of the next few posts will be about this stuff. So here goes to learning to smile on the inside so it shows on the outside. Thanks BK for the reminder that I was once a happy and smilley person.