I met my first goal.

I have decided to set several mini goals to obtain my big weightloss goal. The reason was that if I looked at the say 100 lbs I wanted to lose it was very daunting and almost unobtainable. But I know I can lose 10 lbs, which as of today I have done. My next goal is 10% of my wieght so that would be 26 lbs, also obtainable. Once I hit that my next goal will be 50 lbs total so it would be an additional 14 lbs. The fourth goal will be to be at 200 lbs. Once I hit the 200 lbs I will make my next goals. So today as a treat I bought myself a carmel mocha iced coffee from Mcdonalds. I gotta say it wasn't as good as I used to think they were, so I guess that is a good thing for me.

Fragile state of mind

Man alive, I do not know what the heck is going on with me lately.....I would really love to blame it on my reading materials right now but somehow I don't think that is the case. I have been super moody and doing a lot of crying. I guess it could do with alot of the self reflection I have been doing in the last few days. I am greatful for my wonderful son and understanding husband. However I feel like I have a huge hole in my heart. I feel like anything could just push me past the breaking point and the sad thing is I feel like me not addressing the problems of the past properly is what has lead me to the weight gain. On the bright side I am greatful to report that I have lost 7.1 lbs since my last posting. Honestly I can only attribute it to the careful attention to cutting my portion sizes down and stopping when I am not hungry anymore instead of eating until I am stuffed.

Bye Bye 2010 hello to a slimer 2011

So I definately did not keep up this blog like I wanted to last year. We had much crazines in the year and I am hopeful that this year is different. While I know some things will not change overnight, I do know they will change as will my weight. I finally put a new battery in my scale and actually got on it and weighed myself. Not happy with the results but the reality is I don't plan on staying this weight. I am working to implment some me time each day which will be my exercise time. I am not sure but I think I will be doing this first thing in the morning on my days off so I don't have the excuse of my son being up or in the way. On the days I work I will just have to do it when I get home (only one of those do I have to worry about my son being up) so I may just take Sunday's off or make my son (3 years old, like he would complain) go on a hike with me, we are only 2 blocks away from the forest.

Simple Changes

Well there are a lot of people I know wanting to do the HCG diet. More power to you, just not for me. Quite simply put you will be taking HCG hormones and eating 500 calories a day (totally not for me!). I know for a fact I would be a raging hunry bitch just not a good combination. I have looked into it just to see what it is all about. Some of the major side effects are or can be Migrains ( I already suffer from those) and High blood pressure which is the first thing to go out the window when I get stressed out which are the 2 main reasons I have to say hell no to this diet plan. Lastly speaking with a good friend who had seriously considered this diet and went to her Dr about it (actually the same Doc I use too) she was told it is now being linked to cancer because of the hormone componet. Worried yet I would be. But everyone has to make there own choices and be happy with the, so to those who have done this and been sucessful congrats, its not for me. SO that being said here is my latest plan. 3500 calorie cut equals 1 lb of weight loss. My plan is to cut 500 calories from my diet and 1 soda a day (1 soda-170 calories so that should be a calorie loss of 670 a day) that should give me about 1.5lbs lost a week and its just a simple change. I just have to keep a food diary (hello weight watchers skill I learned years ago). Now this also doesn't take into consideration any exercise. My plan is to make simple changes and take it slow so it will stay off longer. I will do the calorie cut for about 3 weeks to a month before I seriously start throwing in exercise to the mix. It take a month to create a habit!!!!

had to smile today

Ok as we all know I have a 2 year old son, who most days is the light of my life. Ah today not so much althought I think I got a few good smiles in. I am making a cake for a birthday party. The cake has been in the fridge all day untouched (12 whole waking hours for a 2 year old-not bad) I get home the little butt head opens the fridge and takes a handful out of the cake. Now normally I wouldnt care but it was for someone else. Lets hope the hubby can keep him out of it today. I have decided to stop using box cake mixes after this last cake ( I could not keep it from getting crumbs in my white frosting-so mad). I think I have figured out the problem it is the cake mix that uses oil. SO unless it uses butter I am not making a cake!!!!!!! This is probably better in the end for us all anyhow!

Day 3 and post # 3 for the week

Ok a bit of a cheat but I do still have 3 posts in for the week even if I had to do 2 today. Ever have one of those days from hell. Well today is it for me...My husbands hard drive in his laptop crashed new part 70 bucks, I got maybe 4 hours of sleep and have to work graveyards oh caffiene please keep me awake tonight, my son falls in my bed and I stopped the fall with my face (ouch....still waiting to see if it bruises or not, still very tender.) Upside to today is hubby made dinner (left overs but still I did not have to make it). I hope to the good lord I sleep tomorrow! As far as watching what I eat today was so not the day...Hubby got me a double cheese burger from BK and onion rings for breakfast I guess you would call it, spaghetti for lunch and a candy bar and sodas at work tonight. Well there is always tomorrow.

Opps I missed a post last night

AHHHHHH I missed day 2 of my goal. Oh well I will do 2 posts tonight ;). So with my new philosphy I will not beat myself up for missing last night I will just make up for it tonight. We we made some awesome spaghetti sauce last night, it was a collaberation between my husband and I. That being said I could not tell you what all went into it because I asked him to taste it to see what it was missing and he doctored it up when my back was turned. Well let me tell you it tasted even better tonight and I hope the same will be true when I use the left overs (it made a huge batch!!!) to make Veggie lasagna on Sunday. What other crazieness happened yesterday oh yeah my son hit his preschool teacher and got time out.