weight loss surgery

While I don't believe at this time this is the solution for me. I have had 4 very close friends who have been very successful with it. Go girls! But if you have the surgery own up to don't let people believe you did it all on your own it's nothing to be ashamed of. Ok I think 3 posts for tonight is probably enough ranting and raving for one night.

Why do people feel the need to....?

Why is it that I confided in a person once about my feelings towards my weight loss or lack there of, do they now feel the have free rein to give me advice on matters that don't even relate to my back. One was a few months ago at work I asked my boss if I could bring in a Yoga ball to sit on at work from time to time due to my back giving me problems and she tells me "you know when I lost my weight I stopped having back pain". Great for you but my back issue is due to a fractured vertibre and 2 car accidents that I suffered soft tissue damage now does my weight help it probably not but it is not the only solution to my problems I also must undergo chriopratic adjustments so that I stay in allignment and I am actually down to about 3-4 week intervals before I start haivng issues. The second instance was when I mentioned that my guys (husband and son) were home sick and she tells me well your working out right so you dont get sick and you know that if you have healthy hard working muscles you can carry a little extra weight, uhm what medical school did you go to (I think I will defer to my dr's opinion on that one). So I mentioned well last week we hiked two different trails in a couple of different national parks and she has the nevre to tell me well thats not a work out...Ok for my fat ass it most definately is plus it wasnt like we just strolled along we hike at a pretty good pace and chased (seriously) a two year old around the trails. Give a girl some Kuddos for getting her but up off the couch for almost a whole day of hiking and exploring. Nope instead she tells me I need to be running (now I was in track in jr. high) but I have never really been a Runner and I will never be one, I have knee joint issues already and a history of rhumatory arthritis in my family so I would like to do what I can to preserve what I can. Many may think I keep making excuses but there is a lot I can do I bike and I can do elipticals. I have some issues with the treadmill but I do push myself to do that and sometimes it takes alot out of me to hike but I get out there an do it. So I know many of you are thinking just talk to this person. I would but I am afraid of her did I mention she's my boss.

Well no working out 2 days so far this week.

I work the graveyard shift and find it really difficult to be motivated to head to the gym when I get off of work at 6am. It problaby wouldn't be so bad but I got no sleep yesterday or today. While I would like to blame it on my 2 year old he was really good last night and left me alone, even curled up with me for a 2 and half hour nap although I ended up being a wake the whole time. I am hopeful to attempt it tomorrow morning but with the unhappiness I am currenlty feeling at work it is all I can do just to show up there these days. I love my job but I HATE being a supervisor right now and I am only doing what I have to just to get by because no matter what I do these days I can not seem to please anyone at work especially my direct boss. I am starting to think the pay cut of about 50 cents an hour may just be worth it to step down. Less stress would mean a happier home life. I actually started to get angry at my son over something that yes was emotional to me but how would a 2 year old know that when he lost my strand of pearls (so they were on the bathroom floor) that it would be the end of the world to me and make me that angry, now don't go thinking I did something rash I did not but I just felt that anger inside and I did not like it one bit. I will need to make a decision in the near future because I am determined not to let my job affect my home life anymore.

My love affair with the Egg Mcmuffin!

So when I thought about creating this spot. I though why did I gain all the weight I did? Why do I eat what I eat. I was a picky eater growing up but I wasn't heavy really! Light bulb my mom was on weight watchers lost a lot made lifetime memember (Go Mom!) so what did we eat as kids, weight watchers recipies! So my love affair with the Egg McMuffin began my Senior year in high school when you could get them 2 for 2.00 (1995....long ago I know). I would get a ride to school from my friend Laurie and we would stop a McDonalds every morning because it was cheaper than school breakfast and lets be honest tasted oooohhhhhhh so much better and that was when it began. To this day I still love Egg McMuffins and even the sausage ones too. My husband is no help either because he likes them to. So I know need to figure out how to make them at home and better for me and hopefully cheaper! So english muffin no big deal cheese no big deal, canadian bacon no big deal...It is all about the egg prepration I do believe because scrambled just doesn't cut it and how do they make them to fit perfectly on the english muffin? Ahhhhh McDonalds on the way home, that might be sabatoge!

Welcome to the fat white bitch

OK I will admit I am fat, I am white and have been know to be a bitch! All that said I have been trying (not that hard) to lose weight. I have come to the conclusion that there are many options out there that work for lots of people but I don't want to DIET (that's a bad word in my house). I dislike exercise exercise! So here is the delima I want to loose weight but I don't want to diet, I don't want to have surgery and I don't want to go on medication. I have done weight watchers and been some what successful until I stopped journaling and weighing in every week. I lost 50 plus pounds before my wedding on my own OK so the motivation was to fit into my wedding dress but still on my own. I did keep a food log and I did exercise. So I thought to myself how about blog. This is a no holds barred blog but I will now allow people bashing on this site. I will try to post daily but as we all know like may get in the way! I will post recipes that I like feel free to leave comments with recipes or email them to me.

Have a wonderful day!