Well here goes day 1 of my goal!

So last week I said my first mini-goal would be to blog atleast 15 minutes a day each day that I work. Well today is my monday so I have met it because here I am blogging. Wooohooo! We did well so far this week, we had one meal out, the rest have all been at home. Today was a very good meal day. I made everyone and egg and 2 slices of toast for breakfast. For lunch my hubby and son fended for themseleves and found turkey sandwiches and apples (I skipped because I was at the laundry mat and had to sleep when I got home to work the graveyard shift tonigt). For dinner my husband and I had steak, roasted corn on the cob, dinner salad and rice. My son had and apple and 2 bananas (his choice I made him a small version of our dinner but I think all he ate was the biscut on his plate....but I will not complain because he got 3 fruits in one meal), he might have nibbled on his salad but not much. I brought in left overs for work along with a huge bowl of watermellon and cantaloupe which I have eaten half of and now I am so stuffed I might be a bit sick to my stomach...Note to self stop eating before you get way to full! As I type that I stick 2 more pieces of watermelon into my mouth. I wish I were home sleeping right now! Well only 2 more weeks I think of the graveyard shift not sure how I feel about that one but I will get a 4 day weekend to transition from graveyards to days which will be kinda nice. Not so sure what else to write today, the holiday weekend could have been much worse food wise but I was pretty good.

And life gets in the way.....

Wow has it really been almost a month since I posted last. I guess so. Happy 4th to everyone. I will admit to the world I am sitting here eating the healthiest meal in the world right now, NOT! My dinner at 3am consists of chili dogs (yes I am having 2 of them) and a coke (not diet either). Atleast it is tasty. It has been a world wind of a month no exercise but atleast we are eating at home more thats a plus and I am really trying to get more fruits and veggies in the meals. I have been attending supervisor classes which have been really great. I think the one that will impact me the most was the class this week about time managment and balancing your work like with your home life. I know how to make a schedule and even a to do list. But the speaker was more about teaching you how to figure out what is important in you life and what is getting in the way. He also spoke about setting small goals and rewarding yourself for meeting your goals no matter the size of the goal. Thats the good of the month. Now for the bad.....My son got out of the house this week while I was at work, he is fine and we have taken steps to prevent it from happening again. However I wish people who don't even know me or my family would but out. I don't spread gossip/stories or crap about you around town. Kindly do the same for me. Beacause honestly the next person who isn't a friend I am about ready to tell them to take a flying leap!!!(Oh and thats putting it nicely). We feel bad enough about what happened please just let us deal with it and move forward. So my small goals for next week.....30 minutes of exercise on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday mornings. Blog for 15 minutes each night that I work. Thats all I am setting for now.

Learning to smile again

This comes from a conversation with the ex-boyfriend at the bar (I was not drunk). So he tells me to smile, and I told him I don't do that much anymore of course his response was I was married to the wrong man and I told him no he's a good guy and he says that doesn't mean he isn't the wrong man for me. So I tried to give it some thought and ultimately it doesn't come down to who I married I didn't smile for a long time before that. In high school I moved out of my mom's and didn't talk to her for about 2 years. I was raped by someone I thought I could trust and was a friend when I was 20 years old a month after that I dad was diagonosed with a very rare but treatable cancer which he died from 10 years ago on Valentines day. I went through a rough time for quite a while and so I have decided I need to learn to smile again. The question is where do I go from here? I could continue to make excuses because come on lets face I already know that I am an emotional eater. SO it would be really easy to hide behind it all instead of dealing with it head on. So some of the next few posts will be about this stuff. So here goes to learning to smile on the inside so it shows on the outside. Thanks BK for the reminder that I was once a happy and smilley person.

Good Times and Old Friends

Well I actually went to a bar alone this weekend to watch a friend from high school play in a band. Awesome music and great drinks equalls a totally fun night. Got to remember some old times. It is intersting how people remember things differently. I was apparently a tease in high school, never knew that about myself of course this came from an ex-boyfriend. Yes my husband let me go alone, actually he was trying to find me drinking buddies to go with but was unsuccessful and with a 2 yo at home some one had to stay home with him (as we could not find a babysitter either). So I am pretty sure that 4 tequillla sunrises blew my calorie count for that day, but it was well worth it.

Seriously ready for the weekend.

So ready for the weekend. It has been a long week! I did get to enjoy some major family time today which was really nice. My weight loss journey has taken a slight back seat this week. I cut my toe open pretty good and still can not put socks and shoes on, surviving in flip flops however the knees not so much. My husband has a hetic week comming up and I am working 6 days straight next week. I may hit the bar tomorrow night a friend is in town and playing at a local bar which is nice, maybe a few drinks and I would sleep more than 4 hours tomorrow night. Hmmmmmmmm maybe that will be a plan. Heres to a good weekend lets hope it happens then back on track next week;)

If your not part of the solution you are part of the problem! off topic.

Gotta get it out there. Don't complain you don't like something and nothing is ever going to change if you not willing to put any effort into making something change. Don't just depend on others to do the work for you then get mad when you don't like the outcome.